Reflections

 

I'm sitting here in a kayak enjoying an amazing and awesome sunset and I am reflecting on my life and the world around me.  Sunrises and sunsets are special to me because they remind me of how precious life is, they remind me that we only really have "today." We are not gauranteed tomorrow, nor can we do anything about what happened yesterday.  I believe we should make the most of "today" and prepare our best for whatever may happen tomorrow.

I reflect back on the incredibly difficult journey that I've been through just to get here, where I'm healthy and life is now normal again. I remember an illness that took 9-10 years of my life, that seemingly pushed me beyond my ability to endure. I was on an extremely high stressful job, where my blood pressure ran 210/180 consistently while on both a beta blocker and ace inhibitor. I was on call 24/7 and received numerous calls during the nights each week--thus I was not resting well. I was working very long hours behind a desk and consuming junk food, candy, and sodas out of a vending machine. Additionally, black mold was discovered in my home--I believe the mold triggered my food allergies and auto-immune symptoms.  I suffered from horrific food allergies, poor digestion, low blood counts, and skin rashes amongst other things. I believe today that our immune system has a maximum threshold of stressors that it can endure, once the threshold is breached, symptoms appear. 

Despite the high stress and challenges of those years,  I firmly believe in the triumph of hope over despair, peace over stress, and in the concept that this life is a tremendous gift and that we should count our blessings each day we are able to enjoy the gift of life.  

I wish that I could say that my recovery was swift and easy, but it was not. I had to put one step in front of the other, day after day, week after week, and month after month. I had to do extensive research, try new treatment modalities, and new nutritional plans. The journey back to health was long, arduous, and challenging.  

I eventually resigned from my high stress job, my boss asked that I come back, and I foolishly  did return for several more years. Eventually, I resigned a second time and my real estate career was born and developed out of the adversity that I went through. 

Those first few years of food allergies were the most challenging of my life and I believe that it is a miracle that I'm here today--I know it is a miracle. I was given a true second chance to relive my life and this time differently. Though I would never, ever choose to go through intense suffering again, I gleaned wisdom, humility, and maturity through those most difficult years. Those years redefined who I am as an individual today. I am not a perfect human being today by any means, however I strive, I strive real hard to remember the lessons I learned during the most challenging years of my life and I strive to live life with excellence, trying to keep the interests of others in mind, working to build better relationships, and looking toward the future with excitement and awe!  

The Most Difficult Journey of My Life

 

My Journey to Recovery